This post was inspired by this amazing article “What Are You Going to Do When You Retire?” written by one of my favourite PF bloggers. I took a few minutes out of my busy day to dream…
Back in August last year I wrote a post “Are You Living the Life of Your Dreams?” where I confessed that my life at the time was quite far from the life I would want to lead. At that time, I was deep in debt. Fast forward 8 months, I am still in debt but my debt load is not as excruciating as it once was. The weight of debt is slowly lifting off my shoulders. I have still got a good few months ahead of me before I can finally
shout from the rooftops say I am debt free but one thing for sure, – I feel so much stronger and so much closer to my dream.
I started working when I was 20 years old.
I spent the first four years of my career working in aviation. I was employed by a major airline and spent most of my days at my desk in a busy airport office and sometimes travelling around Europe. It was a full time job, but I was working shifts and it never felt like a chore.
I was then offered a fantastic opportunity to relocate to the UK and work for a major wealth management company and use my travel knowledge. Again, I was in full time employment but it was not a 9-5 job. I had a great shift pattern which varied and which I loved.
Fast forward another four years, and you can find me working in an office in the City of London for a global corporate travel company. This is my first real 9-5 job and I have been doing it for just under 3 years. Every Monday I go to work and start my countdown until the weekend.
Don’t get me wrong, my job is great! I can honestly say that I am an expert (or at least I’d like to think I am) at what I do. I earned my senior title by working hard and working with a passion. Of course, there is always room for improvement and I am always looking to learn new things and implement my new skills and knowledge. I get fantastic benefits, I work with great people and I get paid a good salary.
You would think my life was perfect. And it would have indeed been so, had I not hated a 9-5 routine that much! It drains me. It exhausts me. It makes me feel that I am just like every other person (nothing wrong with this apart from the fact that we all like to think we are special, am I right?).
I get up at 7am, it takes me over an hour to get ready for work. I do my hair and make up and always wear something nice for the day ahead. I then spend around 45 minutes on a commute to work. It’s a busy commute on a busy train. By 9:30am I am at my desk. Every day, expect Saturday and Sunday. Sometimes I leave my office for lunch, sometimes I work through lunch. Sometimes I leave the office on time, sometimes I stay behind to finish a project. I get home by 7pm if I am lucky. Most days, I don’t. I attend a lot of work functions and socialize with many people in the industry while sipping champagne and enjoying breathtaking views over London skyline before getting on a train back home and doing it all over again the next day.
I am not complaining. This is the life I have created for myself. I consider myself lucky to be living and working in one of most awesome cities in the world. Sometimes I forget how gorgeous this city is and all it takes is a look around to remind me just how fortunate I am.
Then there are days when I feel trapped. Is this the life of my dreams? Working a 9-5 job? Commuting on a busy train just like everybody else? Spending 8-10 hours of my day chained to a desk? Is that it?
I have decided that the first thing I am going to do when my debt is paid off is save money to travel. For at least six months. I need a break. I have been working a full time job non-stop for 10 years. I am tired. Believe it or not. I know there are people working 2 jobs while raising kids and getting a second degree, and I think it’s great! It’s just not for me. I get burnt out by working one full time job and I am not ashamed to admit it.
We all need a break. Life is meant to be enjoyed.
For the most part, I’d say I enjoy my life, but I know there are so many things I’d rather be doing. I wish I had more spare time to do all the things I love.
I love spending time with my family and friends; I love travelling and exploring the world; I love long walks along the river; I love jogging; I love dancing; I love cooking and baking; I love to sleep; I love planning and throwing parties; I love lazing on the sofa and looking at the sky; I love to dream; I love the sea; I love the sand; I love good food; I love taking my time to do things; I love learning Spanish; in fact, I love to learn full stop; I love reading; I love writing; I love teaching English; I love helping people; I love a good film and a good laugh; I love an occasional glass of champagne; I love the sound of the ocean; I love decorating; I love planning a trip; I love street art; I love music…. I love.
For all the things I love, I owe it to myself to get out of debt and start living my dream.
You do too. Life is too short. Make it count.
image: my own. Taormina, Sicily.